The mind and within

January 4, 2010 in Uncategorized

Human brain has a universe within. It can make us do the weirdest thing, it can take control over our body and personality and we wont have a say in it. I am experiencing the games that the mind can play with us. And its bloody scary.

Last night I experienced a the new age ‘IN’ thing called Insomnia. I woke up at 2am and was unable to sleep till about 5am. There were many external factors that led to this. I didnt know what to do, TV would wake others up and I was bored of the laptop. I remembered the lines from Fight Club – ‘With insomnia, nothing is real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy.’ That was one of the favorite lines from that movie. In fact it also was a major inspiration for my play Evam Indrajit. So I just sat on the bed looking at the ceiling and imagining where else I could have been at that moment. In the middle of the night, in the silence that is so loud, one could hear the faintest sounds. I have no clue where they were coming from, but I did hear so many of them, and I was quite scared to go check them up. On my side was a shelf which I guess I have not opened for about 3 years now. My mother had stored some age old books and magazines and I was never interested in them. I opened it and was scanning through the titles. I was looking for something in English as most of it was in Kannada. I pulled out an old copy of Readers Digest. I see the cover page and I start laughing. The main article of that issue was ‘The secrets of sleeping sound‘. I of course jumped to those pages and started reading, lot of things they said made sense but it didn’t being me any sleep. The next story was about forgiveness, for the kind of mood I was in, I thought I must read that too. It was a good read. Though I was always aware of most of the things it was preaching, but at that point it seemed new. I slept. I love to sleep well. When I was young and I was working out, I used to sleep like a baby. Best of the sleep comes when your body is tired like hell. (Is that why sex happens before sleeping…!!! hahahah)

This post shall be concluded by another Fight Club philosophy – Losing all hope is freedom.